Tuesday, February 22, 2011

I don't want to blog. I do want to blog. I don't want to ......

Someone asked me the other day why I haven't been keeping my blog updated ... well that's one of the very reasons I haven't been bothered - she's the only person who's noticed I haven't been writing!  Imagine that.  The world does not revolve around me and my little family.  My friends and family obviously have better things to do with their lives than read about mine.  Who'da thunk it?

Actually, that's not the most important reason why I've been feeling reluctant to write.  The main reason is because a certain few people from the Turkish side of my family have been feeling offended by some of my descriptions of my experiences here in Turkey.  I've been hearing little comments here and there over the past year about how I've been disrespectful to the Turkish culture by discussing my observations in my blog or on facebook or even in emails I've written.  This has really surprised and upset me because I have never meant any disrespect.  Why is there such an intense sensitivity to anything even remotely critical (intentional or not) of Turkey, I wonder.

As a result of those comments I've felt the need to moderate my words, check with hubby on the acceptability of my posts before posting and on many occasions, even refraining from writing what I really wanted to write about.  So without freedom of speech I haven't felt like writing at all.

That was until now, when I actually started writing.  And I just don't want to stop.  As well as having the potential to be my outlet, this blog could also be a great record of Ky's earliest experiences.  I have so much I want to write about.  Kaya has changed so much.  So much stuff has happened since my last post.  So many things are in the process of happening.  Changes changes changes.  Are you interested?  Is there anyone even listening?