Sunday, March 28, 2010
Beauty, Laughter, Love
If it wasn't for Kaya, during this past week, I wouldn't have noticed a train of hairy caterpillars emerging from under a bush. I wouldn't have felt that wonderful warm spring breeze caress my face as I watched Kaya collect rocks to throw into a hole he found in the garden. I wouldn't have found that giant ball of fluff hidden under the lounge chair. I wouldn't have noticed the little bird pecking for worms under the park bench. I wouldn't have paid attention to the dust fairies dancing in the sunlight streaming through the bedroom window. And I wouldn't have discovered that after offering him just a couple of cloves of roasted garlic, the smell of Kaya's 'garlicy' pee would permeate our whole house for several hours the next morning.
And I'm sure if Kaya wasn't in my life I wouldn't laugh anywhere near as often as I laugh these days. Kaya loves to dance. He's not fussy about the kind of music playing. If it has a beat, for him, it's dance music! He's so funny and so adorable to watch. I don't know where he learns his dance moves. Neither his father nor I dance the way he does and he doesn't watch TV. I guess he just feels the music and his body does the rest. He generally starts with a little bit of a bounce and then he raises one hand up in the air in front of him while he bobs up and down. He'll often incorporate a little twist where he simultaneously bounces up and down, twists his torso and rolls his hips. Sometimes he'll crouch down low and bounce with his little bottom sticking out behind him. And lately he'll throw in a few spins. Even though he'll put on a dance show several times a day, his moves never fail to make my whole body smile!
So many other things he does make me laugh too. For instance, some of the sounds he makes are so funny. His favourite word lately sounds like "Abu Dhabi".. He says it so often we're convinced that perhaps this should be our next holiday destination. He also likes to hum tunes that combine a very low pitch with a very high pitch. When he hums the highest pitch, he raises his little eyebrows and opens his eyes wide. It always makes me laugh. He loves playing chasey and laughs hysterically when I come after him. That of course makes me laugh too. Oh and his fascination with toes! Wiggling my toes makes him giggle uncontrollably and then for some reason he's drawn to bite them. Since my feet are so ticklish, feeling his little hands grab my toes as he tries to get them into my mouth, gets me giggling uncontrollably too!
How I love my little boy. While giving birth to Kaya I gave birth to my own heart. My heart no longer resides in my chest, my heart was reborn in Kaya. I feel this to be true especially when I hold him to my breast and watch his beautiful eyes flutter closed in absolute contentment in his 'milk time'. I feel butterflies in my tummy every single time I nurse him. I feel my heart beating in his little body. I feel a love so overwhelming I can't feel anything else. This little gift of heaven, my little angel, is my heart, my love, my everything. I am so blessed.